i am humming tonight...

so much is falling away and i am having a deeper understanding of my life and why i am the way i am...journeys and self work have helped but also it has created alot of questioning of things i have believed in and feel like they do not serve me now...maybe it comes down to believing in one thing...love...and if it isnt loving it isnt something i believe in...

winter to me is like this great metaphor...it gets cold and quiet as the stars seem so crowded and close...i feel so small in it all...and as if i am light years away from everything...yet in this isolation i feel the hum of a connection still vibrating through me...as stars and planets and particles and conscious lifeforms big and small all hum with energy...and i smile from my spec of light which is me...i smile knowing i am part of the hum too...and the hum is love...

all is humming tonight...some in desperate suffering...others heavy with their long lonely pile of years...still others with diseased bodies and then newborn ones of innocent wonder...through animals and plants...in molecules of water to the tips of each snowflake's point...buried in each grain of sand...everything is humming...humming with love...if we allow ourselves to stay connected we will be with this endless song of love... 

i failed to hum well today...i hum now...and feel the love of my little spec of light...it is the best i can do light years away from everything...but it is enough...sending love...receiving love...tuned in...