Thursday, May 10, 2012

another day goes away...


sometimes i go through my day not getting "it"...why "it" all has to be this way...i dont understand the "structured" world in general...so much around me makes no sense...i seek a translation and there is none...there are no words to match the feelings of grace i feel but i am also at a loss in using words to explain the bewildering feelings as i navigate a de-evolving culture...there are very few places to fit my life into and yet i belong to the world...

i go in and out of places some days wondering if there are others who dont quite fit in to this world as well...

i was coming back from north kingston today and felt overwhelmed by love...the love i have for others...for the green of the trees...for the sky of roaring grey clouds...i felt loved as well...and my eyes blurred with tears of gratitude...so much so i pulled over...and there before me was a small sparrow flopping on the roadway...struggling to escape the speeding cars...and it did...so i came to it and picked it up...took it into the grass and sat with it...giving it comfort and love...it calmed...and then i felt it...the stillness...its eye changing...
emptying out...it was gone...

i felt so honored and humbled by this...i felt so...well...needed i guess you could say...like the unseen filled me with love so i would pull over and offer this love to this wee sparrow...and i felt more love from it and the unseen than i have felt given to me by anyone lately...i felt it trusted me...what an incredibly tender thing to be trusted...i gave a simple prayer to it and to the world...may we all have gentleness in each moment...may the pain leave and the love remain...

i hope this for everyone...from the smallest sparrow passing to the most sorrowful being enduring a long hardship...we are each others angels and we should feel the honor and
the sacredness in being this...

peace to all...

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