i drummed today...at anawan rock...it is a place i simply needed to be...a huge puddingstone surrounded by swamp on three sides...i went into the swamp and drummed for an hour...drumming for loved ones, for the planet, for those i have had sadness with lately...i drummed for forgiveness and to forgive...i thought of others and their suffering...i drummed for healing...i drummed for my own healing...

unravelling very complicated emotions today...feeling a great sense of loss...yet there is the light of love and it shines into me and is there for others...i feel good about this...knowing it...feeling it...sadness not overtaking me...simply there...and love expanding...pushing darkness away...

these are dark times...they pour through our days like a sludge of crude oil...thick...coating everything...yet this darkness stops at the edge of light...it cant reaching me any more...it doesnt gain access...i am very happy for this...to know i can live a conscious life with an open heart...i can feel sadness over a situation or a person and yet radiate love as easily as i inhale and exhale...

it is a peaceful center i have now...it is a calmness...there is untwisting...there is love...so much of it...

i sat in a circle of women and sent love out...i stood in a crowd today and sent love out...i am alone tonight and yet send out love across the ocean and right into my own self...

love is smoothing out my rough edges...it is a beautiful thing...to have this expanding sense of open heartedness...to see others darkness and not go into it with them...but simply witness it and send them love and light...

i feel as if i finally see through all of facades others build to seperate themselves or create an us and them world...i see their fear...their tender vulnerability...and it makes me love them more...i love them past what they do in confusion and see the beauty of their true selves...it is so much easier to love everyone when you can see them in the simple