peace...

really digging the self work i am doing...not easy to look at some of it but so rewarding...releasing alot of junk...clearing out debri inside me...surrendering to what is...accepting without resistance...and i wasnt doing that even today at one point...i was fighting a battle with myself...but for what?...what is there to win when you battle yourself...so i stopped and let go and oh how much easier things came to me then...

i am in this odd moment where old patterns are not just falling away but going down in flames...and i have to laugh at it...i mean i did light the match...being one who believes in radical responsibility...and i created suffereing in myself and others by my actions...but wow sometimes things need to be blown up, set on fire or dropped off a cliff aye?...

i feel very free in a way...like whatever happens simply happens...my medical bills are stacking up...i am not sure about friendships or where i am meant to be...i feel like something is getting ready to happen and i am not sure it is positive but i am already accepting it as a blessing...

i am going away to maine for a few days tomorrow...to rest, be in nature, do self work using journeys...eat some pie...pick up beach treasures...i feel it is time to go on a retreat...a quest...to find answers and to accept healing...i almost expect to come across jesus and buddha hangin out in the woods of maine...maybe sitting on a four wheeler...just toolin around...maybe they will give me a ride...we could go camping and get some serious discussions going over campfire food...would be cool huh?...jesus and buddha and me...i have so many questions...but then i know the one answer...do you?

love...love is the answer to everything:)...

peace to all...