Saturday, July 27, 2013

there is no game...

so much is making sense to me lately...like you get one big piece of the puzzle that helps you put the rest of it together...you know? when you look at the jumbled mess and it suddenly has a noticeable pattern where before it just looked like chaos?

my big puzzle piece was when i journeyed to god...it was right there in that moment i saw everything lined up and spelled out...

a simple message...i am loved...

the rest is just our own torment we heap on ourselves and others...

i came back from that shamanic journey plugged in...oh a few times i almost unplugged again but this aint gonna happen! being plugged in is too important to me...

i still have folks who react to me the same way...they try to tell me how to feel or what they think i am feeling...they try to guilt me boss me or put me down...but i see it for what it is now...just their own game they play with themselves...and it makes me chuckle where i use to get mad or hurt and beat the stuffing out of myself for not being good enough...

now i see it all as power tripping and ways they try to control this game they think they are playing...but...there is no game...none...so many people push and pull at each other and get all grrr about things...they build an obstacle course around their heart...they lay down mindfields and we wont even go into all the other crazy game props and the endless shifting rules...but in the end there is no game...

people think there is only so much to go around so they snatch up as much as they can and hoard it all for themselves...occasionally doling out crumbs so they can taste their own power...but here is the other thing i know...the good stuff pie is as big as we all need it to be...it is a really really really big pie...enough pie for god to eat off of for a gazillion years...that is big huh? yet we hoard love and money and time and happiness and affection and well all the good stuff as if there is only enough for a few...and then the few gets whittled down to the point you think there is only barely enough for you...silly huh?

and then there is time..."i dont have the time"...yes you do...there are just some people more important to spend time with...some events more important to you than others...no problem there...it is just that silly phrasing "i dont have the time"...sure you do...you have 24/7 just like me...but the game tells you to hide all truths...to create facades and plastic decoys of emotions...honesty and integrity dont win you the game...right? generosity and kindness make you a weak player...right?

but remember...the game isnt real...you cant win it...you can just be controlled by the inventor of the game...

i am finding bullshit everywhere because folks are over thinking things and trying to stay two moves ahead...so they assume things rather than just let things be...i have done this...it is part of the game...i am learning not to...i dont know if i am becoming jaded or just see how tedious so much of life has become...but the whole thing is part of the game and the game is so nonproductive...

ego gobbles up so much of our happiness...it loves the game...it wants you addicted to it...it invented the game...it gives you sips of power and you get hooked....you need to know everything and every one's motives so you can play the angles and win at the game...but it is a game that never ends...and nobody wins...everybody in fact loses...well except for the ego...ego gathers up more and more power and adds it to the darkness of the world...the light and happiness are diminished...suffering grows...the world falls into darkness and great sorrow...

i am seeing through my own BS and others so clearly and this makes my ego and other folks egos freak out...cant have any witnesses you know...those still playing the game hate witnesses...they want you to participate in their dysfunctional addiction to the game...

the wizard ego is only as powerful as the illusion you help it create...the curtain needs to stay drawn so the little ego man behind it can keep pulling the levers...but if you can just reach out...reach past the game and touch the curtain...pull it back...look...you will see the little ego man pulling the levers...and then you might see something else...the fear in his eyes...and then there is something else you might see...

as you look back over your shoulder you might see all the other people playing the game right along with you...and then beyond them...beyond the sea of hungry ghosts you just might see the emerald city...it is in the heartland of happiness...

if you walk in and climb the stairs you might see one more thing...one of the most remarkable things you might ever see...you will see a portal to another place...beyond the beyond...and there in pure love you will meet god...in a place with no judgement and no fear...with no religions or dogma...with a full embrace of who you are...an embrace of pure love so breathtaking you will never forget how it feels to be loved so deeply...and you will plug back in...you will never want to be unplugged again or play the game for even one more second...

i hope this for everyone...that you stop playing the game and find the love...let it plug you back in...let it help you know when you are getting ready to unplug...alarms will go off...you will feel you are losing the connection and you wont want to do things the way you use to do them...you will see through all the BS this world can fling at you...ego will not have the horrible grip on you ever again...you will be free...not without moments of challenge and human events of sorrow...but you will have the pure and full access to the flow of love...it will assist you in navigating this human realm like you have not experienced since you were a very young child...before you became unplugged...

i hope this for you...more than anything else i hope you stand in the presence of this immense love and plug back in...




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