I LOVE MYSELF!

ALL CAPITAL LETTERS TONIGHT...RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT...FEELING ALL CAPITAL FEELINGS...FOR MYSELF...WHEN I WOULD NORMALLY BE TRASHING MYSELF OR DOUBTING MYSELF OR REINING MYSELF IN...BY GOD ALMIGHTY I AM CELEBRATING THIS GOOD WOMAN CALLED COLLEEN!!!...

I LOVE MYSELF AND I AM JUST AMAZING...I ACTUALLY FEEL IT...FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A VERY LONG TIME...IN THE MIDDLE OF A SILLY LITTLE LIFE OF STRUGGLES AND SUFFERING I AM LOOKING AT MYSELF SAYING "WOW! COLLEEN YOU ARE SOMETHING SPECIAL. YOU STAND STRONG IN THE FLOOD WATERS...BUT YOU BEND LIKE THE REED AND LIKE THE REED YOU NEVER BREAK."

I AM FEELING THIS SACREDNESS TOWARDS MY OWN LIFE TONIGHT....I AM FEELING THIS TENDERNESS TOWARDS MYSELF...I AM A BRAVE WARRIOR...I RUN TO MY FEARS AND FACE THEM...I MAY SHED TEARS BUT I NEVER HIDE THEM EITHER...I LOVE WITH THE HEART OF THE GREAT AND NOBLE SPIRIT THAT I AM...

I HAVE STRUGGLED AGAINST MY DEMONS AND ALSO DANCED WITH THEM AS WELL...I HAVE GIVEN IN AND PITIED MYSELF AND YET SHOOK IT OFF AND CHEERLEADED MYSELF INSTEAD...

I HAVE BEEN AS COMPASSIONATE AS I COULD BE AND YET FALLEN SHORT OF THIS MOST VALUED ACTION AS WELL...BUT THROUGH IT ALL AND EVERY STEP OF THE WAY I HAVE ASKED MYSELF TO DO BETTER...I HAVE NEVER GIVEN UP...EVEN WHEN I WISHED IT UPON MYSELF...EVEN IN THE DARKNESS OF MY OWN ANGUISH I HAVE SOMEHOW LET MY HIGHER SELF COME IN AND BRING ME BACK FROM THE EDGE...

TONIGHT I WOULD SAY I HAVE GIVEN MY BEST TO THIS WORLD ALL ALONG...TONIGHT I OFFER UP MY BEST TO THE WORLD AND TO MYSELF...I LOVE EVERYONE...AND I MOST CERTAINLY LOVE MYSELF...AND THIS IS EXCITING!...TO SIMPLY LOVE...TO FEEL THE VAST RIVER OF LOVE FLOWING AND I AM STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF IT...ARMS OPEN WIDE...GULPING UP GALLONS OF IT...LOVING ALL THOSE I KNOW AND DONT KNOW...LOVING MYSELF...AND EVEN MORE SO I AM FEELING LOVED...IT TAKES ALOT OF BRAVERY TO RISK STEPPING INTO THIS RIVER OF LOVE...YOU HAVE TO RISK DROWNING OR FLOATING AWAY...

BUT IN THIS RIVER OF LOVE I STAND...ANCHORED BY THE GRACE OF MY OWN ACCEPTANCE...ANCHORED BY THE PASSION OF MY OWN SELF LOVE...STANDING WITH DIGNITY AND PRIDE...NOT A FOOLISH BOASTFUL PRIDE...BUT A PRIDE IN THE ACT OF LOVE...FOR LOVE IS AN ACTION AND NOT JUST A WORD...AND I AM PROUD TO LOVE AS I LOVE...TO STAND IN THIS RIVER AND LOVE ALL OF YOU...I MAY HAVE WALKED AWAY FROM SOME OF YOU OR LEFT TO DO NO MORE HARM...I MAY HAVE LOST TOUCH OR NEVER REACHED OUT AT ALL...BUT I STILL LOVE YOU AND WISH FOR YOU ALL THE LOVE IN THIS RIVER...WALK IN...YOU WILL SEE AND KNOW LOVE TOO...