journey into the green

 

back to rhode island soon...a new and greener path found...actually rediscovered...yet today i felt a thread of anxiety in returning...and i have never felt that before...in all these years of coming and going...i have always looked forward to my returns...but this time a weight sat on my chest...a low humming vibration of dread...so i journeyed to it...

i was in the mossy rich woods of maine...near machias maine....the earth beneath my bare feet...thick fog all around...a fog horn in the distance...the sound of waves gurgling over stones...i fell to the ground and covered myself with dirt...waiting for a guide...

nature breathed into me...a damp green breath filled my lungs...owl swooped down...i was again surrounded by women...i felt uneasy...i was not open...i wanted to leave but pushed myself to stay...

they built a fire and sat talking...not speaking to me...i felt invisible though i know they could see me...and so i got up and walked away...walked to a cliff overlooking the ocean...sat down...one of the women came to me cloaked...a mystic...she burned incense and used a singing bowl...her hands were painted green...light blasted from her heart...i couldnt see her face but didnt need to....i trusted her...she sat with me...my guide...

the moon came and many stars...the cloaked woman glowed with silvery light...she was a swirl of starlight...she told me i needed to finish doing the work...going forward...keep moving forward she said...and then she pushed me off the cliff and into darkness...i fell for a long time...and then was swallowed by the rainbow serpent...it was time to let go of more...not detach but just let go...and as i did i felt freer...i felt light coming...green around me...the green growing more and more until i was all bathed in green...and the sun shined brightly...and i felt safe...