dreaming thoughts

layers of longings crash through this cold room tonight..flying dragons of good fortune dodge angry little stingers of fear...my mind runs to the rescue and gives me a vision of stars smiling...a quiet apparition of you hovers there--low in a gentle valley...

i am dancing on the damp bluegrass, a wild-eyed girl of happiness...ready to lick the creamy saucer of pleasure...honeysuckle sweetness heavy on the vine...the air sighs with the sway of my dance...

come on...forget the slow turns of life...the ache of heartbreak dissolves in the warm breeze here...your stars give you your signs now...unhinge the heavens with me and let’s rip the night apart....

ohhh the smooth skin of a womanly night! cant you taste her? we can groove to the sultry music of wine-drenched lips draped across the thickening hours of passion...with the drumming hips and the driving base beat...with hands gliding...we are braver than we both have ever been...soul reaching into the sacredness of the other...fears burning away in the heat of our breaths...

slide with me along this slippery slope...i will take you places you have never been...burn baby burn in the crimson of yourself and fan the flames with me tonight... pounce upon the chance to sing this song... dont let it stay trapped inside your throat...sing with me...dance with me...within this world i have made for you tonight...

the temple

the old brick temple has been swept away in waves of laughter and delight...now there is golden sunshine flooding my days...rays of light lasering in on tired places...spirals of dancing energy creating a new structure for myself...the old patterns and worn tapestry of  life are gone...new weaving has begun...rich colors and subtle textures...layers in harmony...a visual poem rising up...my temple is one of happiness...walls of flowers and a ceiling of stars...a sanctuary for others to come to...i am at home within myself now...

shaman mask: ghost moondancer

                                                                  acrylic on paper

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morning journey

great journey this morning...i was surrounded by feathers and the sounds of flight...taken to the upper world...was at the mouth of a cave in the himalayan mountains...my new guide...a tibetan oracle...was there and sitting on a small stool...there was no sound in this place...i was all the way awakened and filled with deep compassion...i came to the oracle and sat at his/her feet...oracle lifted a hand and gave me a symbol for endurance...for use in the harnessing of my body's wellness energy to channel into productivity, creativity and the stamina to achieve what i will call upon myself to do...it is exciting to be given this refocus to my life...i feel like a puppy again this morning...very in wonder of each new moment...full of love and mischief making...so here i go into this new day...sun shining inside of me and outside the door...happy day... 

JOHN ♥ YOKO

they were best friends...equals...i remember them on the dick cavett show calling strangers and simply saying "hello, i love you"...they met at yoko's art show in london...john climbed a ladder in her installation piece and saw the word yes on the ceiling...i love that they danced in public and had the same passionate peaceful beliefs...i love that they loved each other so much...

love

to stay aware when life gets difficult is a gift...to stay aware of my own needs and caretake myself through hard times is a blessing to my own humanity...an honoring of life itself...to be compassionate to my painful struggles is a loving kindness as much as if i offer it to another as they struggle...to open myself up and be exposed perhaps is a challenge but in doing so i offer myself a way out of suffering and become a greater healer of the world's suffering...to love myself deeply is to love the world deeply...for the only thing which separates me from another person is a physical body...we are all one in spirit...

this morning i felt this oneness...i felt my own soul...it was warm inside me...growing outward in all directions as i meditated on the most delicate and beautiful word...love...and i felt the oneness...i felt my soul sweep out and wrap everyone in love...i felt a lonely woman houses away...i felt a sick man taking a deep breath as my soul drifted near...i felt the trees and the grass and the molecules of water in the clouds...i felt an infants soft heartbeat and the racing heartbeat of a mouse beneath brown oak leaves...i felt the pulse of the world...billions of heartbeats...trillions of veins of blood pulsing through all those vulnerable bodies which are the temples of their souls...and i was profoundly humbled...

in the dark room i was in my soul reached out and weaved itself around the world...adding to the loving kindness we all need to give and receive...in loving myself i also can love others with a greater depth than i have ever known...in sending love i received it back so easily...i feel loved this morning...not alone...not broken at all...i feel whole...i feel complete...i feel accepted...i feel worthy to be loved...i feel sacred...i feel blessed to have this morning and to be more fully who i was born to be...

i love you...